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me and jess are spending the night at my moms house, in my old bedroom. theres no bed in here now just a twin mattress and some stuff thats being stored. i love living with jess, i love her and her dogs and our little family. but i wont lie, sometimes i miss this place so much. i miss being carefree, having no bills or rent to pay, and having a bedroom that i got to decorate myself. now i cant afford to decorate me and jessicas bedroom how i want it to look. after rent, car payments, necessities, and gas, theres never enough left. im not complaining… i love my life with her. im just tired. tired of all work, and being too tired for any play. i remind myself a lot that this is a process, that im working toward something and that being a grown up isnt always easy. but when im at work, being a nanny for the girls, i find so much joy in playing silly games with them or coloring pictures and just remembering what thats like. i dont know what im getting at in this post… i guess i just had to get all that out.

nulla mae =]